EMOTIONAL BLACKOUT ! A NUMB CHAINED SOUL…. and It’s LUMINANCE !!

I assume we all have been to that  phase atleast once in our lives … where we don’t  know what to do or even think ..this is the moment when our life changes from full to nil and in this particular moment we realise the bitter truth ..”what we are left with?” …. deliberately we start losing faith in everything that is around us, in our relationships and at last in ourselves and believe me “IDENTITY CRISIS”is just a part of it … Indeed it is the most crucial phase and a really hard point to get back to optimistic approach.. this is the time we feel TRAPPED and CHAINED !

i have been through these and even worse bt the only thing that kept my life going was a decision that we have to make a choice here .. “To CHANGE or to be CHANGED ” .. i prefer the former , why should i let any external factor decide on my part.. my survival through such situation can never be by giving up .. i refuse to quit and i refuse to surrender.. come on ! There has to be some other way to get over this situation.. all windows can’t be closed at the same time …we have to find the correct path which will lead to that one window which is wide open fr us too flee from these delusions……… we have to find that ONE WINDOW

in my struggle I encountered few demons of mine SELF LOATHING , INSECURITIES, SOLITUDE and PESSIMISM to name a few … while all of them seem friendly to me in a glance and very comforting in every way since it was like an escapade Bt they do more harm than good … they ate up my life essence like a parasite … after going through everything I decided to give myself a last big shot and did analysed everything and every detail .. went through the voids and let the logic be the judge .. in a short span I started to feel what has to be troubleshooted and how it has to be done . Every one is different so will be their journey and problems so I don’t hv any universal solution Bt I can suggest those few steps which can give a clear picture and thus help troubleshoot and thwart those ugly downfalls

First step of which same is to admire, love and pamper your needs, qualities and acknowledge yourself .. it might sound simple Bt it is as difficult as easy it seems ….i must admit being a piscean woman it was hard for me to get over self pity n swim upward ..in direction opposite to the current..i was a lone confined shell person and extreme introvert that made my situation even worse..Bt once I was done with negative I boosted myself to my very best and the luminating life essence I have today was worth the fight !

Second is to focus on what is important and to overcome overthinking… if you are a loner it will be the greatest challenge for you to overcome overthinking since it is very addictive … although it is very easy to train your subconscious to avoid it … be OCCUPIED.. a preoccupied mind doesn’t allowed the trash to be processed… for doing so try to give your mind subtle hints and try to be more curious … focus on knowledge rather than just fantasising…

Third is to have the WILLINGNESS to succeed and COURAGE to push your boundaries Bt as a controller not as a slave … it might sound strange at first but it is simple once the idea is understood.. we all tend to isolate and avoid any activity or act involving people and if we do we do it just for the sake of doing it .. here we have to understand that natural is always comforting while fake is not… love is like a boomerang whether u love as a lover or even to a homeless child it will sure find its way back to you so be fearless and love fiercely first to yourself and than to others.. it is always a win win situation!

at times it is possible that Things might not get right or turn around as you please and this is what how life works but one can always illuminate against the odds and all these hurdles when overcome become soul food and insure a better person inside and out !!!

Luminescent

The story of that Winsome smile … and how it brought her back to life

It was a eve before Christmas… She was upset and depressed so desperate for a reason to cry … her life was all dark and she had no reason to believe in optimism…. she had lost all she had in a short span of time , life was tough for her and she had all the reason to quit believing …..to distract herself she started cleaning the garage

She stared blankly through the unmanageable stuff until something suddenly caught her gaze… it was her son’s scrapbook from his school days .. she opened it with a faint heart …. on the very first page she was awestruck there was a beautiful image of their family and scribbled along was ” I love my family …and the best part about my family is mom… she is always smiling even when she scolds 🙂 !!!!!!”

She read ahead still overwhelmed with emotion and excitement..further there was another image with underlined statement “Everyone says I smile just like mum … 🙂 yay !!!! ” she stood there frozen gazing at the picture ,it was so beautiful sooo full of life .. vivacious and chirruping at the same time…

she drew the car out of garage and drove directly to the country side … next day the news paper read with block headline ” Secret santa in town .. funds and books to homeless children with tons of toys ” they published the photos of the kids … she can again see that winsome smile which she saw a day before in garage in that scrapbook… and that smile has reflected in her mirror as well .. she was indeed beautiful !

Winsome

Allergic to sarcasm … even though when I am really good at it !

There is a class of people who consider their intellect and themselves superior to others ….. they take pride in taking others down for no reason just to boost their false esteem ….. well let’s be honest we all know that one person who can easily be realated and absolutely fit in d description.. while they justify themselves by numerous ways… I call them emotional bullies ..

It all started few years back …when I was introduced to this amazing world of sarcastic supremes.. I initially thought I won’t fit in the frame … but that minor setback pushed me forward with full throttle .. i didn’t let anyone to get through without bowing to my articulation of words and wit .. it won’t be wrong if I say I am surprisingly good at dry humour… but unlike the sarcastic crowd i rather enjoy taking these bullies down.. i m really allergic to their thought of supremacy ,it  actually seems like a cat’s desire to take over the world…. absolute fantasy  ! I guess this could also be a reason they are called cat callers …

deadpan humour seems to be in fashion…but unfortunately in destructive style..it’s actually really funny when i see people posting or stating status regarding being sarcastic .. its like advertising yourself  ” Hello world .. I know no one gives a damn but still  i just wanna let u all know that i am sarcastic…. OH YEAH !  you heard it right ..I am super sarcastic 😉  ” Sarcasm is not a tool to hurt its a capacity to build and play with words to manipulate and modulate in some thing productive.. lame claims of being supreme won’t lead to heaven but definitely make some one kick your butt hard … make your choice wisely !<a href=”http://Allergic“>
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